| 1. How are you feeling today? |
Well, technically, it's only been today for an hour and 18 minutes so there's not much to go on. But since I am still running on leftovers from yesterday, troubled. Not so good. Not so good at all. |
| 2. What's been bothering you lately? |
I'll leave my mind out of it and say the major sleep disturbances (note the time) mostly. |
|
|
| 3. What's made you smile recently? |
My brother sent me some old family pictures and there was one of my grandma and my grandpa taken just after he got back from the war. They're both dressed up and they're holding hands. He's looking at the camera. It caught him mid-laugh. And she's only looking at him. She's got the world in her hands and couldn't give an eff about anything else. It stirs something. I love it. |
| 4. Have there been any major changes in your life recently? |
Umm.. yeah. The most obvious is the fact that I barely eat or sleep anymore. I've lost like ten pounds and I have circles under my eyes and a bad attitude. I guess that's not so much a good thing though. |
|
|
| 5. What do you think about life? |
I don't know. I have a lot of theories, but not many people agree so it's kind of pointless. I think that the only reason we live is to love. To love yourself and everyone around you, even when they don't deserve it. I think that if everyone would do just that, we wouldn't have everything I hate (fake people, liars, cheaters, fights, divorce, hate, anger, abuse, war, to name a few) |
| 6. What do you think about love? |
I think that love is unrealistic to most people. They either fantasize it to be easier or all-encompassing when even though it can be, in reality, just because of the fact that not everyone is on the same wave-length, it's not. I think that people don't put the effort in. I think that people sell themselves short almost all of the time. I think that most people who say they love someone, barely love them at all because they haven't made the steps to love themselves and others first. Because I also think that's a necessity to really be able to love anyone. And it sucks. |
|
|
| 7. What is the most appalling thing about living in the world today? |
Pretty much what I was just talking about. We as people could be so much more than we are, but it takes all of us. I'm gonna continue to feel whatever I happen to be feeling with all of my heart and I'll keep preaching about how you need to know yourself and learn from yourself and your mistakes before you even try to let anyone else know or learn about or from you, and I hope I inspire some of that in anyone else, but I can't make any promises if I'm one of just a few. The fact that most people don't seem to give an eff or have a clue about who they are and what they could accomplish just depresses me. I hate it when people don't love with all their heart. They're only hurting themselves and everyone involved. |
| 8. If you could have anything, what would it be? |
An open, loving husband and my own children. (In YEARS. Not now.) Just the garuntee of that, if you mean now, I guess. |
| 9. What's a secret that no one knows, but you don't mind sharing? |
I know that God forgives me. I know my friends and family not only forgive me, but empathize with me. But I don’t forgive myself. I’ll never forgive myself. |
| 10. What do you want to own up to when you're on your death bed? |
Haha I like that question. I want to be able to look at my beautiful family standing around me and know that I loved each and every one of them (husband, kids, grandkids, and great grandkids if I'm so lucky) with nd every onunce of my being since the day they were born and until the day I die. |
| 11. Did you really only take this survey because you don't have anyone else to say these things to? |
Hmm... interesting. Yeah maybe. |
![[Logo]](/templates/header_cortex.png)